explain how I am hurting from everything and you keep hurting me even if you say you just using her but you wont tell her you with me and you dont see everytime she or any of your exs get brought up it hurts me but justin i know you love me and sometime i dont know because the way you seem so happy with her like you probobly do love her but you like not being trapped and i feel like you want to be able to have two women and have control of it because you know they will keep coming back because they love you . it hurts me alot and i want you to understand that but explain it hurts and you have broke my trust again but i will never leave you forever because I know we can make it . If you are willing to it all up to you if you are ready because getting over all this is going to be hard but I know we can do it . Our problems right now is that we have both caused each other pain and we cant ge it wrapped around our heads why we would hurt each other and where we hurt each other we hurt each other mentally and that that the worst thing and we will never be okay if our mental isnt right you know . Justin I am hurting menally like bad i dont know how to keep pushing half the days i dont even want to do anything like i feel like there isnt a point of doing anything since Allison came back because in my head i feel like your always gonna run to her . I came to realize that to help Us and our future is to fix ourself because if we dont know who we are how can you help anyone else you love if you dont love yourself and we need to heal ourself too to help our relationship and I want this but you need to heal from the hurt and i know there more hurt than me hurting you , and you need to make some decisions about our future . Like who you want or want in life . even if it hurts those people like you need to help yourself and work on yourself too to help me and our future .
